After we had William (our third) I had 2 miscarriages back to back. The first miscarriage, the day we found out, I knew, I had a feeling that something wasn’t quite right… and in asked my husband Luke if we could wait to tell anyone (not normal for us…. we were the type to shout it out from the roof tops). We lost the baby a few weeks later at 7 weeks. About 10 months later we...
I babysat my life away as a young teenager and loved every minute of it. While attending high school I became interested in child development and worked in the high school’s in-house daycare everyday after school; eventually becoming the Home Economics Sterling Scholar for my studies in child development classes and my work at the daycare. I was an Elementary Education major in college, and a...
My son’s death has been my defining moment. It has been amazing to me that just the few short days of his life have made such a difference for so many years and all the years of my life. Samuel was fine when he was born, but stopped breathing for an undetermined reason a few hours later. He was revived and brought to the Provo NICU, where they could not find anything wrong...
There are few decisions I’ve made in my life where I can truly say “This was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.” I have a “rare” condition called vaginismus. I say rare in quotations because there are women out there that have my problem but don’t talk about it with their physicians or families because it’s too personal, and therefore...
So we were pregnant, and we were due June 25, 2014. Nathan and I were excited to add to our little family! It has been an interesting journey. Hannah was actually pretty excited too (though she didn’t fully understand). We also had many family members thrilled with our news. There have been many prayers said in our behalf to have another child and those prayers were...
April 27th 2012 was one of the hardest days I’ve ever had, as a woman, as a mother, as a human, and as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. On April 27th, 2012 I lost my second child- I was around 10 weeks pregnant, yes I know that so many people have had miscarriages and that it is a “normal” thing. However for me, it was devastating. I questioned so...
My story starts at the tender age of 18. I was a newlywed in college working a full time job. 8 months earlier I had been in an accident and suffered a brain injury that caused many side effects, including fainting spells and short term memory amnesia. I was still recovering from those issues when I met and fell in love with my husband. It was a whirlwind romance. We met and got married in 5...
It’s been almost one year since my miscarriage, and to this day I haven’t shared the story with anyone. – in fact next Saturday will be one year from the day that I began experiencing intense cramping, the first physical sign I had that something was wrong. I was 8 weeks pregnant, and I was going to the doctor in 2 weeks to hear the heart for the first time. The whole experience of...
I have 4 living children, but have lost 3. The first one I was only 4 weeks and have tried to convince myself that maybe I wasn’t really pregnant. The second miscarriage was horrific and completely life changing for me. I was 6 weeks (closer to 7) along when it happened. I was sitting at the table eating breakfast with my kids, it was roughly 7:45am. I had been having some stomach cramping when I...
It was an early spring day that I found out I was expecting a new baby. After nine months of trying to get pregnant, I could not believe my eyes when I took my pregnancy test. The next few months were the hardest that I have had being pregnant. I was constantly nauseous, and I got really dehydrated. For some reason, I told hardly anyone I was pregnant for a long time. Even though I...
Unexplained infertility. Those words followed me around for more than 4 years. After an unsuccessful year of trying to get pregnant we started testing. Normal this. Normal that. Very slightly low thyroid, easily treated with low-dose medication and unlikely to be the cause of our infertility. Month after disappointing month. My infertile friends, one by one, all became pregnant. Women who...