Our daughter Sarah lived only 4 days. Though her life was brief, it was also beautiful, and it was miraculous. Her story starts back in early January 2014 when I found out I was pregnant. This was confusing to us because I hadn’t done IVF four times like we did with my oldest daughter, M. We took 7 pregnancy tests, just to be sure. They were all positive. My little miracle pregnancy...
Sarah and Emily would turn 29 years old at the end of this year. I can’t believe it’s been so long. And yet I have never written down their story. For the first few years I tried to organize things in my head, but I always got too bogged down in the details and the grief. In these days of the COVID19 pandemic, I might never have told the story otherwise. In 1988, when my 3rd son Ryan was a...
My son’s death has been my defining moment. It has been amazing to me that just the few short days of his life have made such a difference for so many years and all the years of my life. Samuel was fine when he was born, but stopped breathing for an undetermined reason a few hours later. He was revived and brought to the Provo NICU, where they could not find anything wrong...
It was an early spring day that I found out I was expecting a new baby. After nine months of trying to get pregnant, I could not believe my eyes when I took my pregnancy test. The next few months were the hardest that I have had being pregnant. I was constantly nauseous, and I got really dehydrated. For some reason, I told hardly anyone I was pregnant for a long time. Even though I...