Losing a child has always been at the top of my “unimaginable” list. I couldn’t comprehend what it would feel like, nor the type of strength it would take to make it through. I even frequently said, “I don’t think that will happen to me because God knows I couldn’t handle it”… Our son Charley was stillborn at 39 weeks April, of 2007. I’ll never forget the amazing spirit in our home the week...
In August 2016, we found out we were expecting our first baby due April 12, 2017. Everything progressed well throughout the pregnancy and just before Thanksgiving 2016, we found out we were having a little girl. The doctors did monthly ultrasounds to closely monitor the baby’s growth and heart as I have an autoimmune disease called Ulcerative Colitis, and they wanted to be extra precautious. She...
Our sweet angel Olivia was born still on February 19th, 2019. Our story is not an easy one to tell, but I know that sharing it has helped me heal and has helped keep the memory of our sweet baby girl alive. Sunday night: It had been a few days since I had felt her kick. There were still movements going on, but they weren’t the same. I had felt distinct hard kicks…but not since Friday. I...
Sarah and Emily would turn 29 years old at the end of this year. I can’t believe it’s been so long. And yet I have never written down their story. For the first few years I tried to organize things in my head, but I always got too bogged down in the details and the grief. In these days of the COVID19 pandemic, I might never have told the story otherwise. In 1988, when my 3rd son Ryan was a...
When we found out we were expecting our fourth baby, we were very excited! At 11 weeks along, I felt cramping and experienced bleeding. I made an appointment with my doctor and an ultrasound was performed. I was told to go on bed rest. This was terrible news because I had other very active, young children at home. We kept monitoring the baby’s growth and, during one of the...