Our Son was born on Nov. 29th, 2012. This event happened 5 years after trying to get pregnant. During those 5 years I had 2 miscarriages. The birth of our son brought an immense amount of joy but looking back the years leading up to his birth were hard and filled with a lot of different emotions. Growing up I always wanted to be a mom and never had any indication that it would be a struggle for...
I couldn’t have known. We had been married almost 3 years when we felt it was time to try to have a baby. We were living in a community where waiting that long must have meant something was wrong with us. Despite the questioning and wondering we could sense from so many around us, we knew that none of that mattered. We had an extremely long path of schooling ahead of us, but knew waiting...
What is hard about my experience with miscarriages and infertility is they feel like they sit in this ‘in-between’ zone. They feel ambiguous, and so it’s been hard sometimes to mourn them properly or express the feelings I need to express about them. I’ve had three miscarriages. They all happened between 6 and 10 weeks, the ‘normal’ time frame for a miscarriage. It really isn’t that long to be...
So, this may get long. I have been wanting to write this whole thing out for a very long time, but have never known what I was going to do with it if I did. There may be some that seems “off topic” but for me, its all connected. So, here is my story… I have never been one to remember my dreams, but when I was about 17, I had the same dream twice two consecutive nights that were...
After we had William (our third) I had 2 miscarriages back to back. The first miscarriage, the day we found out, I knew, I had a feeling that something wasn’t quite right… and in asked my husband Luke if we could wait to tell anyone (not normal for us…. we were the type to shout it out from the roof tops). We lost the baby a few weeks later at 7 weeks. About 10 months later we...
I had 5 miscarriages before we finally got Kanan, my oldest son. All 5 of them were discovered via ultrasound and 4 of them were D&Cs. To add insult to injury, the first D&C was scheduled at a hospital that was out of network and we got billed thousands of dollars for it. Two of the babies were sent for genetic testing to rule that out for a possible cause. Those two were genetically...
My story starts at the tender age of 18. I was a newlywed in college working a full time job. 8 months earlier I had been in an accident and suffered a brain injury that caused many side effects, including fainting spells and short term memory amnesia. I was still recovering from those issues when I met and fell in love with my husband. It was a whirlwind romance. We met and got married in 5...
I have 4 living children, but have lost 3. The first one I was only 4 weeks and have tried to convince myself that maybe I wasn’t really pregnant. The second miscarriage was horrific and completely life changing for me. I was 6 weeks (closer to 7) along when it happened. I was sitting at the table eating breakfast with my kids, it was roughly 7:45am. I had been having some stomach cramping when I...